Tomorrow is the day!

I have been on a journey for the last week of trying to take back control of as much as humanly possible.  My goal for the week was to be able to look at the last 7 days and know that some things were better.  Today was day 7 and so far I think I have done it.  My husband gets his LP tomorrow which is a minus for him but nice for me because we get some alone time while he is on bed rest.  As you all know this can be tough with teenagers.  I am finally able to sleep again admittedly with a little help from medication but it worked.  I feel focused and ready to battle anyone or anything.  Even though it is just my hubby and the 3 girls and no other family to speak of I think that they are so amazing and in that regard I am so very lucky.  I honestly do think that any one of them or myself would be there in an circumstance to be sure we all come out of this.  As scary as you would think it is for 3 girls to have a mom with MS and a dad who is newly ill they act like beacons reminding us all why we get up and continue on each day.  They offered to grocery shop with a list and coupons on the only day the middle one was off of school or work which says a lot at 16 and the older one cleans and cooks without asking.  Then we come to the youngest who is the queen of washing clothes.  My husband and I both come from such broken homes and we married at 17 and 19 so you would thing that they would be a mess but amazingly it seems that they are happy and I think most of the time that we got it right....some by accident and the rest was just luck and lots of love.  Last week I don't think I felt like anything would be okay but isn't it amazing what rest and a lot of support from family and people on here can do for you.  It is so very wonderful to have a place to just vent without being judged.  Thanks to everyone who helped me through this panic.  I am sure that there will be others but I do appreciate you all.