Sorry to whine, But today is a really bad day.

This morning I called my pain management Dr. To refill my med's thet are due on the 28th of this month. And they informed me that I can not get them untill I see my Dr.  But, they failed to tell me I would have to see him every 2-3 months. Now I will be out for 6 days, and I am so tired of them spring things on me at the last moment, Like when He has gone out of town, and I have called to get my Med.'s because He is only there on Mon. And Tues.'s of the week. Then they inform you that the Dr. is out of Town, and won't be back for 2 wk.'s and you are not notified of this till you call for your refill.  They have pulled this kind a **** so many times, that I am just going to have to find a new Dr.
When you have been on this strong of Medications for 9 years, They just do not care if you suffer in Pain so bad, You just want to Cut you Body off from the waist Down!!!!!!!!!!   I wish I never had this Pain!!!!, I have been Beaten by my X So Bad, they had to Reconstuct my Whole Face and my body was cut and brused so bad, The Dr.s then had to remove pavement from my arms and legs from Him knocking me out and then draging me for blocks till I finally came to, and was lucky to run into a house, where they thought my throat had been slit, from all of the blood! my Nose was sitting on the left side of my face and they had to stich my lip and chine that was really badly cut open. My whole face was so bad that my good friends of 10 years, Did not even know it was me then open the door, that following week! They could not recontruck my face for 7 days, untill the sweling went down. My hair was all ripped out, except some that was in knots and coved in blood. It took me 3 days just to finially comb through it, my head had knots every where from him beating it and kicking it, when I was knocked out. And it was the size of a large pumpkin. He had also put my head through a wall, leaving me with sevear head and neck Trama , and now after all of the times he has beat me, they id a MRI later from head aches that never went away for long, and the MRI, showed that I had Spots in my Brian, that looked like MS, But, was caused from Head Trama, I had been left in Serios Condition the night he had beat me so badly! I will go for now, But, They do mean that when the bruises go away, You will end up paying for it as the years go by!!!!! So, if You are being abused, Please..... GET OUT!!! Make a plan or just run to a Womens Shelter for safty!!!!   My X had also shot at me when He was Drunk,  With a 357 Magnam, and had missed my head by 3 inches,  I was burned on my arms and legs from the Gun Powder, ( I was in Shorts and A Short Sleeved Shirt!!!!!!   Anyway, This is what it has done to me in the years that have passed by, I now Suffer, So Much Pain all over, I have had 25 surgeries, and I have had to have 3 dicks removed and my neck is held together from a fuse. It  has tietainem that is  a squar with 4 sides and 4 sqrews holding it together, Now my lower back is also getting so bad it had 2 crushed disks, and I hlso can not walk from all the Pain in my lower Back, in Tailbone, also Pain and Numbness that runs Down my Legs, And I can not even Get Out of bed and Walk, Without my Pain Med.'s!!! this is why I am so Upset with my Dr.'s Office.   I felt like I finally had my life back, Where I could walk, and do things with my Kid's and They just took that away!!! At Leased for a week!!!   But, that is a long time!!!!, when you are in seveave PAIN!!!!         Always, TBird21966