every other day...

My mind wonders,
in deep,obscure depression
Lifeless movements across my still body.
My head seems empty, my eyes are heavy
Once again I lie in solitude,
wondering how life became so miserable.
I put my head in my hands, and I scream.
I feel numb for only a minute.
What happened? I can feel the heartache.
My emotions are taking a huge chunk out of my life,
and remorsefully tearing my internal fire apart.
I don't wake to anything but hate,
hate for myself, hate for him, and hate for happy people.
A piece of me fades as I slide into impervious sadness.
I anticipate the time of happiness,
a time when I can lift this undesired burden.
And begin my life, once again.