Chapter 3 - The 3rd IVF, Frozen Babies

Well I went to sleep night last night thinking of my frozen babies and as I was thinking...  I had the faintest feeling that I had two frozen babies left, not one.  And surprisingly that made me feel happy.  I'll check with the nurses at my next appointment, but I think there is two.

I keep thinking that it only takes one good embryo to get pregnant and when it's right, it will take and stick itself to my uterus and it will be the right time and all will be ok.  I think the best thing that someone has told me is that only the right embryo will take and when they don't it's just not the right one for me.  I feel that with unexplained infertility this is the right attitude to have, as if any couple would be trying to have a family it would be the same, it's not like most women get pregnant the first time they start trying to have a baby, do they...  Well they don't in most cases.

So I think the last few years have just not been right and I somehow think that maybe now it's right.  When I look at my husband and I we are quite contented (we generally have a very volatile relationship), we are having fun, we have most everything we want, and very few hiccups are happening along the way.  And the issues that do come up, when I think about it are really nothing.  I always seem to make more of everything than it actually is and once I realize when I'm doing that I get over it and move on and say, "it's really not worth it".  So by "it" i mean everything from frustration, sadness to anger and the funny thing is it really usually is something really small and insignificant that just seems to be a drama at the time.

So my mantra for now is -

All is well
I am happy
Be well and happy
Show myself and everyone around me that I am well and happy!

Sound good!  I'm going with it!