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Sad that AF came

Aug 19, 2008 12:00AM - 3 comments

I just remember last month i was so happy to see AF, i was so excited, like i won something. It was the first cylce after my m/c. NOW , i am so sad to see her, she just arrived about 15 min ago.  I am so sad, so many emotions running threw me, disappointed, feel like a failure, feel like its going to take forever to get a BFP. I am so crying as i type this, i can not hold it in, i have to cry, it hurts really bad, now some of those feelings i had after the m/c is resurfacing, this really bites.  I dont think i can do this again and handle another BFN.  This is like a bad nightmare and i dont want to be starring in it. I dont even want to look at the thermometer, i dont even feel like waking up every day at 5:30 just to take a temp, checking my cm to see if its fertile or not, ttc involves so much.____________flatline, im lost of words and my heart is beating irregualar.

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by michelle_rusty, Aug 19, 2008 07:30PM
im sorry to hear that the af came. i know how bad you want one . but you know everything is in god's hands and its all happens in due time.. in 13 more days you can try agin but not think so much about it this time. i know that is alot to say but you dont need the extra stress of worrying. ill be praying for ya sweetie.

by Tiger63, Aug 19, 2008 08:04PM
I wish there was something i could say to make you feel better but i know there's not. Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers and i'm hoping that this year we both will become pregnant. Keep trying and don't give up!

by Christine_713, Aug 28, 2008 05:48AM
I understand how you feel completely. I have lost 4 babies this year. I recently found out that I have MFTHR. Not sure yet if that makes me feel better or worse.

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