Rediscovering Myself.

hi to all the respected members of this forum who tried their best to give a new life to an individual..

I am 22 year old male in a very terrible. I dont want to live ne more, coz because of my addiction to cough syrup.... ITs been more than 1 year that i had been into it.. Frankly speaking i had tried many time to quit it but was unsuccessful. This must be because that drug called codeine (which is there in the cough syrup which gives a high, relief from ne kind of stress) i think now my body is prone to it and needs it if i dont take it.... i had tired to withdraw from it but some how i was not able to win over withdrawal symptoms like  bad ache in my feet, frustration, not able to concentrate and etc..... Now its too much now i cannot cheat my parents any more, when i think that how was i in past, its totally different me now. And  somehow i dont want to live with this addiction any more, it would be better to die rather to live with that addiction. I really feel guilty,  its like firstly u do all those **** things which i knw was not right and would trouble me physically and mentally..... I want to concentrate towards my higher studies but this addiction had totally ruined my life.....i want to get rid of it at ne cost.... I had very big hope from this forum members that they would help me and i promise that i will not touch that **** again. Please respected members as you are experts please please help me, please suggest me something or some medicines which would ease the withdrawal symptom of it..... I tried b4 also b4 nd was unsuccessful because i never took any kind of advice from any expert.. I dont want to put my parents down in front of the society just because me, i am really short of words to express my worry and concern towards this..... I really hope that i will get a new life with the help of this Forum. i promise i wld be 110% honest and will not hide any thing......because it is just destroying me.
i am ready to follow all the instruction, as i want 2 rediscover myself, original me is lost somewhere and at any cost i had to search for it by hook or crook...... So respected members please please help....!!!!

Rediscovering Myself