tired,worried,scared

yesterday was hectic but OK, hubby went to work right after I got home, I did nothing last night but rest from the trip. today is cleaning and laundry. I talked to the youngest last night and he was in Ky working, everything sounded OK but that doesn't mean anything. After being home I realized he was hiding so much from me and my oldest is too. I don't blame either but my worries are back and I am scared for him. He said next week his job is going to be north and he will be staying in a hotel for 3 days, which scares me, I am afraid he will either get drunk or stoned and loose another job. But what can I do? nothing but love and support him from afar. Being with him doesn't help either because I want to cry and scream at him about what he is doing not only to himself but our entire family and that won't help just push him farther away. will just continue to pray hard. also in a lot of pain today, fibromlygia is acting up and Dr appointment not until next week. trying to find help paying for my meds, which is impossible, takes over 80% of my monthly check to pay for them, but what are you gonna do? either pay the price or go without, which isnt an option at this time...