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trying to do what i did BC

Jul 27, 2008 12:48PM - 3 comments

I find that I get tired out doing the smallest things, laundry, cooking, baking, I used to bake home made brownies all the time BC, now I can still do them but only one at a time, I find it to exhauting to try to make more than one batch, my family loves my brownies it just seems like it's not fair that I found something I loved to do and now with this I can't do it like i want to.

The only good news to come out of this is that at the present moment i am cancer free, that is a good thing for me to be able to say. I will just have to work on getting back into my natural habitat a little slower and make time to rest when needed.

It frustrates me to because the man I have been with for the past 15 yrs. has MD he has gotten progressivly worse and now with me having this disease it makes it harder on me all around, he can't do for himself and I can barely do for myself when I am feeling like ****, I never in my entire life thought that this would happen to me just as i'm sure that everyone else out there thought the same thing about themselves, I'm not blaming anyone or anything on GOD, I just wish that I had someone who was able to be more helpful when I am in need of it. My mom can only do so much and my Ex is the same way he cares but again he can only do certain things to help and my oldest is in the Army getting his training to do what he needs to do to serve his country he will be home soon and I can't wait for that.



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by marie3B, Jul 27, 2008 01:06PM
I find I have trouble doing things, too.  Even things like writing out checks for the bills takes me so much longer than BC.  I can't say my cooking has suffered much, since I was never into cooking anyway.  Going to stores I think is the worst for me.  I can't concentrate on what I need to get and I feel overwhelmed in big stores.  I am glad you are cancer-free and hope you stay that way.  What stage was yours?   Marie

by JC145, Jul 27, 2008 07:45PM
It's hard trying to be "normal" and still have cancer.  I will pray you get some help and find your energy soon.  Judy

by 1st_timecancer, Jul 27, 2008 07:49PM
thank you, right now i am trying to deal with the pain from the new meds they have me on between the chemo and the nuelasta my whole body is so sore and achie, although i dont think the word "normal" is ever going to be in my vocabulary again, but i will settle for being alive right now.

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