HOW I BECAME A DRUG ADDICT

IT STARTED SO SIMPLE....SOMEONE SELLING PERKS AND VICS REAL CHEAP WHERE I WORK.  TRIED A FEW AND LIKED  HOW THEY MADE MY PAIN GO AWAY, BUT EVEN MORE HOW THEY MADE MY MIND FEEL.     I STARTED TAKING 1 A DAY USUALLY ABOUT 2PM...IT GAVE ME ENERGY TO DO THE HOUSE AND GET DINNER TOGETHER.  A FEW WEEKS LATER I WOULD TAKE 1 AT 2PM AND 1 AT 8PM.  THEN I DECIDED TO GO TO A PAIN MANAGEMENT DOC AND GET A LEGAL SCRIPT.  WELL I GOT MY WISH.  I GOT PERK 5 S AND COULD TAKE UP TO 4 A DAY.  IT GOT TO BE NOT ENOUGH.  I WAS GOING UP AND UP ON MY DOSES SO I HAD TO BUY  MORE ON THE SIDE TO KEEP UP WITH THE ADDICTION.   THEN IN JULY OF 2007 DOC  GAVE ME 7.5 PERKS.  WOW I WAS IN HEAVEN BUT REALLY IN HELL.  I KNEW I HAD A PROBLEM BUT THOUGHT OH WELL IT AINT GOING TO BOTHER ME.  AT THE DOCS AT MY DECEMBER VISIT I HAD A PEE TEST AND THEY FOUND VICS IN MY SYSTEM SO I WAS DISMISSED.  I WAS DEVASTATED TO SAY THE LEAST BUT I HAD PLENTY OF CONTACTS TO BUY FROM.  HOW STUPID I WAS WASTING MONEY ON THE DAMN FEEL GOOD PILLS.  KEPT ABUSING AND IN MARCH OF 2008 I TRIED TO QUIT OVER MY BOYS SPRING BREAK BUT FAILED.  KEPT ABUSING TILL JULY WHEN I GOT TIRED OF THIS WHOLE SITUATION AND CAN BACK TO THIS FORUM AND DECIDED THIS IS IT  .....I DONE WTH THIS ****... BEST THING I EVER DONE IN MY LIFE.  AS OF TODAY I ONLY HAVE 13 DAYS UNDER MY BELT BUT I KNOW I CAN DO IT.  EVERYTHING IS SO CLEAR.  I LOVE THE SUNRISES AND SUNSETS SO MUCH.  I LOVE TO GAZE AT THE STARS AT NIGHT, I LIKE TO WAKE UP AND NOT TAKE A PILL MOST OF ALL... ITS ALL SO GOOD.  WDS WERE AWFUL LOTS OF TEARS AND PAIN AND ALL THE OTHER LOVELY THINGS THAT GO ALONG WITH IT.    BUT ITS OVER NOW AND I WILL STAY STRONG.  I THANK ALL THE PEOPLE HERE WHO HELPED AND CARED AND I WOULD LIKE TO HELP ANYONE GOING THROUGH THIS.  I ALSO THANK GOD FOR GIVING ME THE COURAGE TO PUT THIS CHAPTER OF MY LIFE BEHIND ME.  GOD BLESS US ALL   AMEN