first doctor. only ortho i had heard of who does the strange thing. so so so strange. he looks at the body. actually no.
he does normal **** but i guess he looks at scoliiosis.


well since eight months have gone by and i have accomplished maybe zero. and after reading online and stuff and something i have seem like advanced scolioss. so i see him. he says no. you don't have scolioss. then he says
you might have had extreme scoliosis before the accident. so that might be why.

then he runs away. i love how doctors never run. they do this amazing kind of cartoon where there body is out of the room before there head

the second doctor
had me get a ct-scan on legs. right leg. because it's 2 inches longer. though he hasn't bothered to measure. my left, i thought it was hip but i'm not to smart, but it's the pelvis is like pushing out of my back. so my middle or hips or whatever are rotated.

so the ****** gets the ct-scan back and says. it's good. your legs are not longer. i say "you mean the bone"  yes.
now i am not smart but i am not dumb. but i ******* knew the ******* bone hadn't grown two ******* inches.

so then here is the problem. i have to ask questions / statements. well why is my leg longer then? he looks at scan. well the pelvis looks

and i say why is this so much lower than this....

welll that is

then two and half minutes were up. "don't worry. we'll figure it out. it'll take awhile. go see the spine guy here"

the spine guy there. i've already seen two ******* spine guys

is it just me or is it very very difficult to ask a doctor a question when it comes to a doctor specialty. maybe any doctor. i have yet to have a doctor listen to my question, maybe even think, then answer. they answer as they are usually getting ready to leave.

is that just my luck?

boring backround

athletic whole life.
eight months ago. walking across street, in a cross walk being a good boy, car hit me. going pretty fast i was told 20. flew between 15-20 feet and the weird thing is i was wearing shorts and short sleeve shirt. not one cut. all impact was in my left buttocks and higher part of left leg then my friend said i put my hands down right before i hit street.

anyway. since then. i have yet to find any doctor to help. symptoms have only progressed

from emt kind of laughing about it, er not sure what happened but they just sent me out,

month or so later had fractures in tib / fibula. not serious.

two weeks after that a huge hump in my left back. told by ******* doc it was "muscle spasm"
-then right shoulder dropped
-left leg length issue now of two inches. was ranked one in tennis as junior in calironia so i try to tell people i wasn't like this before
-hips rotated so i can't stand straight anymore

and no help.

at this point all that is left is a physiatrist. fine. except it takes my neurologist forever to send the **** of to stanford who already denied me once for neuro cause my case was to 'complicated" or something

i am tried. angry at the doctors. angry at the people around who care i don't know what amount. i've driven straight close to every day to doctors appt's.

i now know one should have an advocate. i have people would could be them. but they don't find it important.

head is messed up. there is this saying called "sense of smell" i have this thing i made up called "sense of time"
i could have seen you yesterday or six months ago. it's the same.

yesterday was friday. i would have bet money it was monday.

etc etc

i don't know what journals are for here. so i am sorry i bore you.

reese

stuck in oakland from new york
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