I have decided that I am going to move out so I can get on with my life. I have 2 condos I'm going to look at tomorrow. When my state of mind is directly related to my bad home life there is no way I can stay. I'm so tired and unmotivated right now that I need to find the energy to start packing my stuff and get the hell out of this palce. My husband doesn't understand my disease and really doesn't care. I've given him 12 years of my life that I have now lost and I want to get my life back, happy & healthy. I know someday I'll meet someone nice who does understand and won't say mean and nasty things about my disease.
I think it will be better for my son, I can tell he is suffering and unhappy. No kid should have to be that way. He's very sensitive like I am and we both can't stand the screaming and yelling that takes place in this house. Everytime my husband sreams and yells it cuts right to my core and makes me feel sick to my stomach. I can't sleep, can't eat, and can't focus on anything!
I made a huge mistake moving back in with him, I should have stayed away and never come back. Now I have to pay $1200 in rent, have no job and little savings. I can't find a god damn job and have sent out 100's of resumes.
When the hell is it going to fall into place for me? When am I going to be able to sleep nad feel better again?
I can't take anymore or I'm going to fall apart!!

I've decide to move out. I'm looking at 2 places tomorrow and hopefully one of them will work out for me. I pray they do since it's been so hard finding a place that's not 20 miles from my son's school.
I just have no idea how I'm going to get the energy to move, I'm going to have to find it someplace! I need to be strong now and I don't have any strength!!

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I have had all I can take right now. My so called "husband" yelled at me and told me I ingnore my son. I don't ignore him. I am terribly depressed and my meds aren't helping. I have trouble sleeping and feel like I need to get out of this house. He is a real piece of work to say that to me. It goes to show he has no idea about this disease and doesn't really care to. I am looking for a condo now and will move out as soon as I can!

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I don't update my tracker since I haven't relapsed since I quit. My moods go up and down like anyone but that's life. I follow my docs orders to a "T". He is a psychiatrist and specializes in addiction. He's been a life saver and I never miss my monthly appointment.
I also attend AA 3-4 times a week and always have. I now chair and speak at meetings to share my story as well as sponsor 3 people.
If things change, I'll update my tracker.

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